Thursday, March 12, 2009

"BETRAYAL!!!!!"

Betrayal! That's what my brain *screamed* to me on my drive into my first day into work. I've been a stay-home mom for just over seven years now. But now I'm going back to work, part time. Yet, I feel like I'm betraying my children. Never mind that I'm only working three hours a day or so - hours that the kids are in school. I get off of work a full three hours earlier than my first child arrives home from school.

I worked Monday through Friday, 8:00 a.m. until 4:30 p.m. (with a minimum 35 minute commute both ways) when Son #1 and Son #2 were very young. This is no where near as intensive as that. So why do I feel like pooh? And yet, I feel an odd sense of accomplishment (as in, I spent three hours in a law firm and didn't screw anything up).

6 comments:

Lala's world said...

it is such a conflicting cross of emotions!! but I agree, there is a sense of accomplishment that you just don't get at home! well not in the same way!!

Elle*Bee said...

You are so correct, Lala! At home, I feel like a master "logistics coordinator" yet at work, I feel like I'm using my brain (gasp!). I've been following your blog long enough to know that you can relate

~d said...

Hey wow!! Congratulations to you on the job!!

Elle*Bee said...

thanks, ~d. Great to hear from you again!

Nadine said...

Congratulations on the job. It's always hard to work out of the home, but it sounds like you did a great job.

Shionge said...

Hey don't feel like this, good to maximize your time when the kids are at school.

You'll feel accomplished and fulfilled :)